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"O Rapist Of Mine"
To the man who made me learn about life
And take charge of who I want to be
For you I owe my ways of my mind
And I thank you for helping to make me.
All because of you and the deeds you performed
I have became this wonderful woman
And all this time I thought I hated you
And that you were the biggest dick in the world.
But now I realize how wrong I was
O beautiful sincere rapist of mine
Because you have changed my life for the better
Even though the beauty in it was so hard to find.
I know I would never be the person I am today
If you wouldn't have destroyed my youth
If you wouldn't have came into the bathroom that night
And now I'm relieved because this is the truth.
All the years of lying to my family
And the years of therapy I've had to undergo
Were merely wastes of time and breath
Maybe I shouldn't have tried to say no
Thank you O glorious rapist of mine
For raping me during that warm March night
And for stealing everything I had to offer
Just know that you're a real man now and you're my never-ending light.
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"Understandings"
I do not understand
Why he had to share that with her
Why he couldn't have waited for me
Why he won't give me his heart
But most of all, I do not undrestand
Why God would give us this
Something so unmistakably perfect
With all the problems
We're going to have to face
Because of his mistake in the long run
What I understand most is me
Having to decide if I really love him
If I'm ready to be called mom
And if he's worth the heartache
I might have to face
In the end. |
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"Masquerade Mask"
Some days I think he'll make it
Other days aren't as fine
He has this haunting secret
That will one day also be mine.
He cries when no one can see him
Or when he thinks no one can
But I see him during his problems
Of how bad hislife has been damned.
I take pity on him for his sorrow
And for the breaking on his heart
I pray on the fact of tomorrow
Where we can make a brand new start.
He's held together by the finest thread
With my name on the stitchings
And so many facts remain unsaid
But I shall keep on wishing.
"I'm so sorry she has hurt you
And denied your exsistence as a man
I'll be right here to help you through
Always right here beside you is where you shall stand."
It wasn't his fault she left him
But along with her, she took his world
His life now is nothing to win
With the absence of his baby girl.
All he wants is to be with her
And hear "Daddy" come from her mouth
But she knows him as man or sir
Or any other Tom, Harry, or Ralph.
He tries to stay strong during the day
And I try to help him with that task
It's hard though when there's nothing to say
He sees her as some sort of masquerade mask. |
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"Forgive Me Daddy"
I didn't really mean to do it Daddy
But I just couldn't take the pain
Yet I'm not sure I regret any of it Daddy
I lived in unbreakable chains.
You were the only one who understood me Daddy
As he went off and slept with another
It just wasn't fair at all Daddy
"She's prettier than you," said his brother.
I didn't mean to cry all those tears Daddy
My heart just hurt so bad
I wanted to find an easier way out Daddy
But those times were just too sad.
I still remember the things he said Daddy
"You were never good enough," he shouted
Why couldn't I have been better Daddy
It was my figure I doubted.
I never meant to hurt you too Daddy
But I was demolished by my love
I had to do what I did Daddy
This gave me the final shove.
Please forgive me for this Daddy
It was simply my turn to make the call
I decided mine was by a razor Daddy
As I took my pain away that one fearless, forgiving fall. |
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